Ode to Aesthetics.

There's nothing that destroys a perfectly healthy relationship more often than jealousy.

We all go through it, we all hate it, and i'm sure it's ruined quite a few of our relationships. It's human nature to be jealous, and at times it's even healthy. But more often than not..it causes useless and pointless arguments. For example, she's out with a bunch of her friends and when you ask for the names, you find out she's with a few guys and you instantly become bothered. You bring up questions like " Oh, why don't you go get with them then " or you try to act like it doesn't bother you at all, and pull the " Oh okay, i'll ttyl then. ". It's a really bad individual quality, but those who go through it understand how hard it is to overcome. Jealousy is like a disease and from experience, i know it's almost impossible to cure.

I guess there's different causes for a persons jealousy, but for most, it's a lack of self-confidence and self-esteem. You constantly think about how much better your partner can get, and if someone better comes along will he/she go for them? Stupid questions like that only cause more anxiety and more stress on your part. Another downfall of jealousy is that you spend countless moments of your day imagining scenarios of what COULD happen, when you really you should be worrying about what IS happening. It's even possible to be jealous about your partners past. Maybe you found out she's been with alot of other guys, and all of a sudden you feel small and inadequate. Maybe you feel as if you'll never measure up or be on her level, and that she was happier back then rather than now with you.

A jealous person never knows when to stop.

I really don't know where i'm going with this blog, but i do know i'm a victim of jealousy, and it's slowly but surely pushing the person i care most about away from me.

" And no one wants to share their chick with the last guy, to get rid of the bad vibes you figured you'd ask why ; her past love is still chillin in the picture frame. Which is lame, but for some dumb reason.. the last guy seeps into your brain and you become unseasoned. Then one evening you build up the heart to ask her ; disaster, and now your lungs breathin hard as asthma. And after she breaks down and tells you the truth, it leads to another fight and now she's yelling at you.. "